Confidence and Self Esteem

      This week I drove by a church's sign and it read "When faults are thick love is thin". This got me thinking of how I view myself and how it effects the way I feel about myself. It made me realize that when I dwell or concentrate on my faults it is when I get down. I can even beat myself up over it. It is in those down times when I seem to give into the emotional eating. It has made me really reflect on how I view myself. I seem to look at the negative things more then the good things most of the time. Just as in my weight loss and other things in my life I tend to see how I see more of my faults like they are that big bold black line and the good are thin skinny lines. The way I see my self directly effects my confidence. The days my fault lines are thinner are the days my confidence is higher and I happy about myself.  All this also effects my work at the gym. On days my confidence is up and my self esteem is good are days I truck into the gym and bust my but. On days I see those thick lines are days I find my self looking into the mirrors being hard on myself. Even  though I know I have lost close to 80 pounds I cant see it behind those lines. So for the next couple of weeks this is something I am going to try to get balanced. In a 12 step processes they say you should keep things balanced when working the fourth step. I am going to try to apply that more on a daily basis when looking at my self and my feelings about me. I am wondering if this is even possible to keep it balanced daily but I am going to try to do it. I know I really need this especially with my back sore like it is. I also want to wish everyone who reads this a happy Halloween.